I don’t even know why, really. A multitude of things? Things that really shouldn’t get to me but for some reason it is. I need to blaze, fuck.
Your day is just like mine.
Favorite model/designer: So he is an artist. I truly love Sam Flores despite his over hype.
Ideal mate: Someone who I feel I can take home to my family. Who I can take out my little cousins with. Someone I feel 100% comfortable with. Who makes me feel more beautiful then I already feel. Treats me right and knows their limits. Someone who can provide me with some substance that no one yet has. Honestly, someone I am able to really fall in love with.
Biggest Dream: like i said DEF JAM POETRY
Favorite Music: 90s music like the feel good jams. If you can understand that?
Biggest Dream: I have always wanted to be on Def Jam Poetry even though I am not all that good.
Biggest Regret: I dont really have one anymore. I got into my head that shit happens and we deal with it. It molds us.
It is not suppressing them.It is just not acknowledging the fact they exist. Or maybe they both are the same thing. Either way, emotions have been off the chain. I hate moments of hopes to be shot down, but it makes us stronger if not smarter. We find out things that bring negativity. We realize things that bring along disappointment or unwanted sadness/anger/frustration. For me, I let myself drown in this big ass ocean of problems of my feelings and what to do with them. Then I thought about it, why stress myself so much over it? I thought more about what I have going for me and whats better for me. Things I could do to better myself that will make me happy. Do things I want to despite anyones judgements. I will do whatever I want ; good or bad. I want to live up for the moment. Experience recklessness with some control. Confusing, but I understand it.
Fuck, so overthinking my budget & saving money. I cant get a brand new one so I guess I shall craiglist this shit. I need fucking WRG niggas to help me. I know nothing about bikes. Sigh.